• These Are The Days Of The Dark Passenger

    The first time I heard the phrase “The Dark Passenger”, it resonated with me. I connected. I connected because I can see it. A constant shadow, hovering in the periphery of my existence, sometimes quire invisible, other times loud and very present. A wave of dark swirling clouds It’s here. This dark riding companion I can’t seem to kick out. Believe me I’ve tried. I’m tired of talking about it because “think more positively,”  “be grateful,”  “seek greater spirituality” “Everyone feels down in the dumps sometimes.” and every other “helpful” prescriptions like that doesn’t exactly help. Maybe I don’t want any help. With each passing day, I can feel myself getting sucked…

  • If It Feels Like Your Mood Swings Are Out Of Control…

    I have always had mood swings. for as long as i can remember. I was a relatively happy child, who grew up into a moody adolescent, a turbulent teenager and a complicated adult.  (Someday, I’ll tell you how that happened) When i started having mood swings, i didn’t know what they were called. But i knew exactly how i felt. One moment, I’ll be happy, playful and carefree, the next moment, I’ll be irritable, unhappy , uninterested in anything and anyone. It got worse as i grew up. A lot of this had to do with my natural temperament and being molested at eight but I had no one to…

  • October 13th. Two Years Ago, I Tried To Kill Myself….

    I have shared about my personal struggle with depression on this blog before and one day i will probably share about how God healed me of BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder). It’s a battle i don’t pray for anyone to have to fight. When I got this email from one of my blog readers, who is also a radio listener, i felt an emotion so great that a sob rose in my throat. The interesting thing is i had met her before and if she hadn’t shared her story i would never have guessed she’d gone through so much. At the end of the day, this just reminds me that we are…

  • Yes. I Do Have Depressive Episodes…

    This is one of those times I have to be brutally open on this blog because not only does it help me, it can help someone else too. And most importantly, I know that God gave me this blog to connect with his children and encourage and inspire through sharing my own journey. This past week has been a struggle. For those who don’t know, I do struggle with a mood disorder that border on depression. So I had a relapse. I was out of sync with everything. I could barely function at my job, (when you talk for a living, you can imagine how hard that can be) I…