I Am Tired.

This is not an inspirational post. it’s not meant to be. frankly speaking, i don’t even know what it’s supposed to be.

I haven’t written anything here in a while and i miss that. I miss you reading and in a way, i miss me. i miss the me that writes.

I haven’t been in the right head space for some time and I’ve tried to find a name or description for how I’m feeling and the one word i could come up with, is ‘tired’.

I’m tired of the hustle and bustle of daily living.
I’m tired of answering questions, smiling and laughing and shaking hands and having conversations when i don’t feel like it.
I’m tired of giving myself regular pep talks that everything will be alright
I’m tired of working hard to create a good life for myself
I’m tired of choosing to be happy
I’m tired of being sad too.
I’m tired of being me. whatever that means.

Maybe this is a selfish post and you’re going to tell me that God loves me and i should focus on that, save your energy. I know. but when i think about it, I’m still tired.

 

 

6 Comments

  • Abiola

    It is totally ok to be tired and feel these things. Some smart woman named Fola made me realize this. God knows you know he loves you so no need to say that here. But I do know that it’s ok to be tired. Please o, No one should make you feel bad for or anyway for being tired 🙄
    I love you

  • Mofolorunso

    Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly.” Matthew11:28-30(MSG)

  • Anonymous

    It’s natural to feel tired a times as human.every distressing situation you find yourself into is only but a phase. I have always known you to be a strong lady.am sure you will bounce back.am sure you will find happiness doing what desire,living the life you dreamt of and achieving your goals in happiness.4lah you’re favoured already.patience please…..

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